It Seemed Ridiculous to Ask…

Slacker! That’s all I can think about. But, I pray that God will have mercy upon me and will allow me to be a good steward of this platform to proclaim His name. I have put this blog in God’s hands because, after-all, “The earth is the Lord’s, and everything in it” (Psalm 24:1, NIV).

Anyway, I figured a testimony was appropriate to restart my commitment; this blog business started with me wanting to share testimonies 🙂

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TESTIMONY TIME!

 I can only describe my life right now as something a friend of mine said, “Girl, you’re lacking in everything!” This is true. I recently relocated to Amherst, MA in hopes of working (full-time) with The Navigators; but things haven’t exactly gone as expected. So, I need money, which means I need a job (but it could also mean that someone can just generously give me a million dollars… but I’ll stick with reality). Anyway, I need a job, which means I need to send in applications, which means I need some form of device (a laptop) that’ll reach that end. Unfortunately, my laptop, Leo, is reaching the end of his life.

This past couple of months, Leo would turn on but won’t work; so, I have been without a laptop (and none was available for me to use). It didn’t really bother me because before Leo stopped working I had put in a lot of applications and I was expecting call-backs… And I kept expecting call-backs… I am still expecting call-backs. It was obvious I needed to put in more applications, but that meant I would need to go to the library. I did do that one day, but then I realized how very inconvenient the entire process was– I’ll save you the details.

Today was my “Applications Day” day. I woke up this morning and I told God (more like kinda cried and whined) that I didn’t want to go to the library. I wasn’t in the best mood and I just wanted to stay indoors (which is also my natural disposition, my personality, if you will). I didn’t even pray to God about my laptop because I thought it was ridiculous to ask God to fix something like that, something that seemed dead already– also, admittedly, a part of me didn’t believe that God will actually answer because it’s a laptop! Talk about no faith!!! Anyway, I turned on Leo and he works! In fact, I am writing this on my precious Leo!

It is amazing to me how much God cares for me! This blows my mind! He cares for me enough to let my laptop work again, properly, even! I am expecting a job after this– a good one, too, because His blessing “brings wealth and he adds no trouble to it” (Proverbs 10:22, NIV). As a matter of fact, I am expecting a new laptop!

This may make me sound like a spoiled brat, but God did it for me anyway! I am overjoyed. testimony

Praise Jesus with me!

Changed

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own” (1st Corinthians 6:19, NIV).

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Testimony time! Yay!!! I love testimonies. Please allow me to share a quick one with you. God is good!

I’m just so grateful for what God has been doing in my life! Honestly, God is good and great and wonderful; His love and care for me still amazes me. When I think about the goodness of God, how far He has brought me, how much He has changed me, all I can say is THANK YOU, JESUS!

In the passage quoted above, Paul warns the Corinthians that their bodies belonged to God. Think about that: your body belongs to God– even when you get married, your body still belongs to God. What that means is that you just can’t do whatever you want with or to your body. God is holy, you belong to Him, therefore, you must be holy. What am I rambling about? I want to thank God for allowing me to realize that my body is His temple. I want to thank God for changing my life, cleaning my body, and inhabiting His temple!

This testimony is only a small part of a bigger testimony, but I want to thank God for saving me from sexual immorality– all forms of it. Before I gave my life to Christ I used my body for whatever I wanted to– because it felt good, because it made me feel like a woman, because I didn’t want to feel pain, because it made me feel desired, because I longed to be loved, because I was thirsty for something deeper, which I didn’t even realize… But my story has changed! Yesterday, I was alone in my house, watching a movie. At the end of the day the thought came to my mind that if it were last year, I would’ve been doing something else with my body; I would’ve taken advantage of the rare opportunity of being by myself– I was messed up, friends! But praise God for my victory!

No longer do I succumb to the temptation. I am reminded of the fact that I have overcome the devil and his temptations by the blood of Jesus Christ and by the word of this testimony I am able to give today (Revelation 12:11)! Praise God with me!

My friends, be encouraged! No matter what you are struggling with, please know that Jesus wants to make you whole, body, soul and spirit; so come to Him. Trust in His word, believe in His name, and watch how your life will be changed. If He can turn a filthy woman like me into His servant– one who is writing openly about her struggles, unashamed, to give glory to His name– then He can certainly change your life! And the whole world will see it and praise His name, the name above all!

Transformed

“And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit” (2nd Corinthians 3:18, NIV).

First of all, God is good! I just can’t keep that to myself, neither can I say it enough. God is so good that when I think about His goodness towards me, I cry. But today is not about crying; it is a day of thanksgiving.

One aspect of God’s goodness that I have been enjoying is His power to transform! Friends, never underestimate the power of God to change your life and give you a whole new perspective, a new outlook, a new mind, etc. An example of the transformative power of the Holy Spirit is the story of Paul! Once called Saul, Paul was a Christian-hating-murdering Jewish man who was bent on destroying the disciples’ work after Jesus’ ascension. Jesus encountered him on his way to Damascus in Acts 9. This same guy was transformed by God to be the guy who planted churches, wrote a majority of the books in the New Testament, called himself a servant of Jesus in multiple letters, etc. I look at Paul and I want God to so transform my life that people will be wondering: who’s that girl? I want to know her God.

But I digress. So what does all of this have to do with me? God has already started his transformative work in my life. I had the chance to share a bit of my story with someone today and I realized my heart for people, especially my family, has changed.

I love my family, don’t get me wrong; but now I LOVE them! I love them with the love of Christ! I love them with the burden on my heart to get them closer to Jesus! I love them enough to care about their salvation and eternity. I love them enough to rebuke them and correct them. I love them so much that all I want is for them to know Jesus on an intimate level and be souled out for Him! I love them so much that I pray for them, intercede on their behalf. I love them enough to want to talk to them and check in on them and give them godly counsel and disciple them. I can keep going but I’ll stop.

This is not to brag. This is just to show what God has done in my heart. To be honest, before I surrendered to Christ, I was selfish. My family, though they mattered, were just people I was stuck with, so I had to tolerate them. Praying for them was a burden to me, caring for their wellbeing was forced out of me. I am not proud of this; I’m quite ashamed, honestly. But I thank God I am not who I was.

So I praise God for transforming me by the renewal of my mind and the changing of my heart.

This is my testimony. This new found love I have for my family doesn’t stop with them– it is extended to friends, neighbors, strangers, siblings in the Lord, etc. And let me tell you something, I am glad! I am glad that God has shown me mercy by allowing me to care as He does– although, He cares way more for them! And He cares way more for you!