Thanksgiving Fast– Day 21

Ok, here’s the list for 10/17/2016, Monday, which was yesterday!!!

  1. Seeing another day.
  2. Continuing and finishing my hair.
  3. More Supernatural!
  4. Not going to work.
  5. Even though my body was hurting, I was pushing through– only strength from God!
  6. McDonald’s– not the best option for food out there, but it was a quick pick me up when I needed it.
  7. Staying unplugged– I barely used my phone.
  8. The earth
  9. Hot chocolate
  10. Peanut butter and honey sandwich (I think I’ve also mentioned this one before).
  11. Being human– yes, we have our own troubles and setbacks, but we also all have the hope of being with Jesus when/if we accept Him.
  12. God is true, He is real, He knows me!
  13. Sleeping and waking
  14. Friends checking in on me– that really touched me.
  15. Talking to God, you know, casually.
  16. I have a purpose in life
  17. The mercy of God!
  18. Day 21!!!
  19. God is showing me more and more things to be thankful for.
  20. A few more day till my birthday!
  21. Driving back and forth last night to get food– it was very cold and very foggy, but I thank God for journey mercies!
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Thanksgiving Fast– Day 20

The list for 10/16/2016, Sunday

  1. Last day of the retreat.
  2. Driving back to MA, safe and sound!
  3. Bringing some food stuff back with me from the retreat.
  4. Making new friends.
  5. Being part of the retreat– it was nice, really nice. I felt accomplished, I guess.
  6. Relaxing when I got back… Oh, man! I didn’t realize how much I’d missed my room.
  7. Watching past seasons of Supernatural! I really love that show.
  8. Netflix– I really love TV, to be honest (and I feel like I’ve mentioned this before).
  9. Started doing my hair.
  10. It was my uncle’s birthday. He’s the best!!! I love him so much!
  11. My hands and feet.
  12. Having hair products on hand, available.
  13. Knowing the Word of God, having knowledge of it.
  14. Another Sunday, being able to experience it.
  15. Having a family.
  16. Having food to eat.
  17. Entertainment, of all kinds.
  18. Pushing through my tiredness– even being able to do that, all God’s grace!
  19. Having family to talk to/with– the good, the bad, the ugly.
  20. Day 20! I really can’t believe it! 4 more days!!

Thanksgiving Fast– Day 19

This list is for 10/15/2016, Saturday

  1. I slept really well! I mean REALLY!!! The bed we slept on was so comfortable.
  2. Having a comforter to keep me warm when it got cold.
  3. I love Coke! I love Coca-Cola!!!!
  4. The retreat went really well. Very nice view.
  5. Just being able to unplug over the weekend!
  6. I had quality quiet time with God! It was awesome. So peaceful, quiet.
  7. We looked at the book of Daniel over the weekend.
  8. Realization (heart knowledge) that God is always working, orchestrating– in the background, but He is at the center of it all.
  9. Confronting my fear– something I have been struggling with for some time, that I am not enough, that I will be forgotten, or that I am not doing enough. I confessed this to God– I know that there is work to be done.
  10. I talked with new people over the weekend, hearing stories, laughing, playing games! I thank God for great company.
  11. Romans 5-6
  12. I AM NO LONGER A SLAVE TO SIN.
  13. Nature! Being surrounded by God’s fingerprint!! Ah!!!
  14. There was a hike on Saturday, and I know it was great, but I thank God because I did not go– it gave me the time to be still and just be quiet and be restful in the presence of God.
  15. I prepped for a Bible study with one of the girls at the retreat.
  16. The game subway surf– I love that game.
  17. Having technology to be able to capture such great beauty around us.
  18. Having a relationship with God.
  19. I sat outside Saturday afternoon, and was just read the Word. It was AMAZING!!!!

Thanksgiving Fast– Day 18

I have so much catching up to do!! Oh, man! So, here’s my list for 10/14/2016, Friday.

  1. Waking up and going to work.
  2. Staying awake at work and making it through.
  3. Being able to give a co-worker a ride– ministry and opportunity.
  4. I made moin moin (Bean cake) and I ate it! It was delicious!
  5. My friend Bolanle, whose birthday was on Friday! (Her picture is above). Bolanle is a great woman of God– young, but the anointing of God upon her life is PALPABLE! She’s beautiful, caring, kind. Ahh!! I thank God for her!
  6. My friend Eileen, whose birthday was also on Friday. I met Eileen not too long ago, and I already admire her. She encourages me to want to get closer to Jesus! She is so beautiful! And she likes my jollof rice, even though she’s Ghanian haha!
    eileen
    My friend Eileen and I in May 2016

     

  7. Birthdays!! They are so awesome.
  8. Catching up on these blog entries.
  9. Running errands, to and fro, and making it safely.(Psalm 121 comes to mind).
  10. Driving to NH, for Navs Retreat
  11. Getting pulled over, but no incident– it was really scary!!!
  12. Being part of the 2016 Navs Fall Retreat.
  13. Conversations with people.
  14. I met a married couple, and they gave me hope for marriage.
  15. We stayed in this really nice house, a REALLY nice house!
  16. Hope (hoping) that one day I’ll be able to support people who are fundraising.
  17. Bonding with someone over snacks!
  18. God’s sovereignty– everything will be alright because God is in control.

Slacking

“Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and purity” (1st Timothy 4:12, NIV).

“So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!” (1st Corinthians 10:12).

“The sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied” (Proverbs 13:4, NIV).

CONFESSION TIME!

This past week, my wonderful sister came to spend her spring break with me. As awesome as it was, it was very stressful and annoying as well; I learned about myself and my selfishness. But this is not what I want to talk about.

Before she came, I told myself that I will not stop my routine, especially my time alone with God (I like to have quality quiet time)– I wanted to show God that He is first, regardless of who is around. I wanted to be a good example to her ( I really took Paul’s charge to Timothy to heart), in hopes that she would be encouraged to do the same, perhaps even join me and whatnot. This was not the reality, however. Honestly,I had my quiet time on Monday… and for the rest of the week, nothing.

I am not sure what I felt, but I felt “bad”. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not blaming my sister for anything; I had an expectation of myself that wasn’t fulfilled. Perhaps I didn’t want it to seem as if I wasn’t paying attention to her?  Perhaps I didn’t want to seem/feel stuck up or “holier than thou”? Perhaps there just wasn’t time? I don’t know. And it wasn’t that I didn’t read my Bible, I also didn’t spend time in prayer, meditation or memorizing scripture; it was as if God was non-existent to me.

I felt empty.

The scariest part for me was how quickly and willingly I yielded to my flesh for a lot of things, i.e. yelling and succumbing to anger, not loving or extending grace, entertaining depraved thoughts, viewing and searching for sexually immoral materials, etc. It scared me! And the lesson I learned is that if I don’t feed the Spirit, I feed the flesh— there is no such thing as being stagnant when it comes to our relationship with God because we are either moving forward or falling backwards.

Nevertheless, I thank God for the week, for the lesson and the growth and the sorrow (2nd Corinthians 7:10) that I experienced. I wish I hadn’t yielded to the flesh, though, because for a second I doubted my salvation, I was scared and ashamed to approach my Father, I believed God couldn’t love me anymore. I thank God that I was able to confess my sins, and I thank Him for His forgiveness and cleansing. I am now more aware of feeding the Spirit, of doing my due diligence (truly putting God first), so that I will be able to stand and firmly resist the wiles of the enemy.

Amen!

Something New: A Recipe

“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?” (Isaiah 43:19, NIV)

“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see” (Hebrews 11:1, NLT).

I need newness in my life!

My phone is dying, my laptop is dead, my clothes are worn and torn; I need a car, a job, money; I need to be fully funded by January but I am only 7% funded; student loans are piling up and I am just tired of Sallie Mae calling, emailing, and sending me letters; my body is in pain, my heart is heavy; I’m struggling with loneliness, heartache, self esteem…. I can continue but I’ll stop. It’s been the same story since the beginning of 2015; 2016 is almost here and I desire a new song!

It’s in this state of mind that I approached God. Immediately, the Isaiah 43 passage came to my mind. I love the NIV use of the word “perceive” because it’s God asking me, “My daughter, I AM doing something new with you, but why aren’t you aware of it yet?” I had no answer; I still don’t. But, God still extended His grace to me by calling my attention to today’s verse of the day, Hebrews 11:1. My response was what that boy’s father told Jesus, ” ‘I believe; help my unbelief!’ ” (Mark 9:24, ESV). I wasn’t trying to be smart with God, but I was being sincere.

I do want to perceive what God is doing in my life, but my myopic view makes it impossible to even imagine. Do you get what I mean? I do want to trust and believe and live knowing that God’s thoughts and plans for me are good, but it is hard when things seem unchanging. However, I can’t ignore God’s message to me to perceive (become aware, be conscious of the fact, understand, realize, look through the eyes of the Spirit) the work He is doing in me. I must also take it by faith and wait for the manifestation of His work and promises for me.

Therefore, I believe the newness I desire is coming– in fact, it is here! My car, my phone, my laptop, funding, clothes, job, money, vision, growth, self-love, etc. are here– I even desire to have new prayers requests, to stop asking for forgiveness for the same things! If God is my God, then I must believe that His perfect will (what I truly desire) for me is the best for me. All I need is a dash of faith, a whole lot of waiting, and an extra dose of keeping my heart on “whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable… excellent or praiseworthy” (Philippians 4:8, NIV). Changing old habits is hard, but even old dogs can learn new tricks!

So, I have a new journey, something I wasn’t looking for– but my God always knows what I need…

He is…

“God said to Moses, ‘I AM WHO I AM.’ This is what you are to say to the Israelites. ‘I AM has sent me to you.’ ” (Exodus 3:14, NIV).

When I think about God and all He is, my human mind freaks out to the point where my flesh starts to lie to me and say that there is no God. But I know that He is alive and He is very active, not just in the world but also in my life.

Before becoming born again I had always been fascinated with God! Now that I am growing in my relationship with Him, I am overwhelmed that He can be and IS everything to me; not just what I want, what I need as well.

Where am I getting this from? Well, His Word is my number one source. In the Bible I find facts about God, His character, His heart towards me, and so much more! The Bible tells me that “the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword…” (Hebrews 4:12, NIV). The Bible tells me “All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness” (2nd Timothy 3:16, NIV), so I can trust it.

So what does the Bible tell me about my God?
• He is Creator (Genesis 1).
• He is Father (Matthew 6:9).
• He is Shepherd (Psalm 23).
• He is Redeemer (Isaiah 47:4).
• He is Strength (Psalm 73:26).
• He is Shelter (Psalm 91:2).
• He is Rock (Psalm 18:2).
• He is Strong tower (Psalm 61:3).
• He is Comforter (Isaiah 40:1).
• He is Present help (Psalm 46:1).
• He is Savior (Luke 1:47).
• He is Friend (John 15:15).
• He is Healer (Psalm 107:20).
• He is Deliverer (Exodus 13, 14).
• He is First Love (Revelation 2:4).

These are just a few things about God; there is so much more– no wonder that song says He is INDESCRIBABLE!!. The list can go on for days. The Scriptures are just a few of the many that point me to who God is– and ultimately who He wants to be to me.

The second source is my life and my continuous relationship with my Maker. I rededicated my life to God on October 13, 2013, a week before I turned 21. I got baptized December 4th of the same year. The journey hasn’t been easy but God has proved Himself over and over again. I have learned that God is my best friend, my burden bearer, the One who holds my tears, my defender, my husband, the Calmer of my heart, my trust, my helper, my master, my leader, my physician, my might, the strength of my heart, my teacher, my corrector, my truth, my life, my forgiver, my provider, my one true love, the architect of my life, the one to whom I surrender, the Holy Spirit, the all sufficient one, Grace, Truth, Beauty; in short, I am learning, every single day, that He is everything I need.

In all honesty, sometimes I forget who God is and has been to me. But I thank Him because day after day He shows me His steadfast love (Lamentations 3:22-24).

I am still a work in progress, but I have God, who is perfect and perfection. Indeed, He is…

Song: “Everything”, by Tye Tribbett                                    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vWVn6MCExjA

Freestyle Friday: Poem

This is a poem I wrote in the Spring of 2013, which was the end of my junior year. I wrote this in one of my creative writing classes. At this point I had read about Jesus but hadn’t truly accepted him. I was living and striving in sin… I thought for sure that God would never want me talkless of loving me. Well, praise God for His grace and mercy upon my life!

The title of the poem is “Savior”

Disclaimer: I dabble with poetry; I’m no Shakespeare.

Savior

My savior once walked amongst us,

teaching us how to live:

patience, obedience, and love;

to spread truth,

to fight for justice,

to give our all

now and forevermore.

These are the rules he gave.

These are the lessons he taught.

My savior used to walk with me,

now I just walk alone.