I Do Not Understand why God Wants Me

” ‘But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him’ ” (Luke 15:20 b).

I don’t think I will ever fully understand the love and grace of God towards me!

Jesus threw a lot of shade! I think Luke 15:11-32 is an example. The Pharisees and teachers of the law were singing the same old song of how Jesus “welcomes” (Luke 15:2) the undesirables of society, and this story was one of three Jesus used to answer their complaint.

The Prodigal Son. This must be a Sunday School favorite. Before tonight, I had concluded that the younger son was crazy and stupid, that the father was even more crazy and stupid, and that the older son was the only sane one, but he was also crazy and stupid for being unforgiving. After rereading this parable, the Holy Spirit allowed me to see that the father, though illogical, is God, my Father, waiting, eager for my return to Him.

Verse 20 really caught my attention: the father was always waiting for his son; he still remembered what his son looked like, enough to recognize him from a long distance away; he still cared enough about the undeserving son to break social norms by running towards him; he still loved him enough to have compassion, which out-poured into action when he hugged him and kissed him. This father was so eager to welcome back the son who pretty much told him he was dead when he asked for his inheritance (Luke 15:12) that he didn’t want him to think that he is a son by worth– and the truth is that we are not worthy of His GRACE! Pastor Judah Smith said in a sermon about this passage, and paraphrasing here, that we are children by birth, not by worth.

Isn’t it amazing that we have a Father who wants us? Do we understand that this father did not need his son? But, he wanted his son back! He was eager to embrace his son, kiss him, and reinstate him– this is why God sent Jesus into the world, so that we can be reinstated as His children! How awesome is that?!

To be honest, this section now has me confused and a bit emotional because I am that younger son, and I will never understand why my Father wants me– why is He reaching out for/to me?!?! I don’t know. But I know that He does want me.

So, if you think you’re the worst, and that God cannot possibly want you, think again. He is eagerly waiting for you to just turn your face towards Him, and He will come running towards you! He wants to celebrate you because He loves you.

Won’t you turn to Him today, friend? You won’t understand why He wants you, but just accept that He does. And, friend, it’ll be the best decision you will ever make!


There is NO Other One!

“Turn to me and be saved, all you ends of the earth; for I am God, and there is no other” (Isaiah 45:22, NIV).

I have been in the book of Isaiah for a while now, and it has been quite the journey, to say the least. At first, I was wondering why people have been telling me how great Isaiah is; honestly, I did not find it appealing because it was all pronouncements of woes and judgments on the nations. Then, I read chapter 35, which has been my favorite chapter so far; it’s now one of my favorite passages in the Bible. Anyway, this chapter, I think, was a turning point for me because after this chapter, my eyes were opened, somehow, and I started connecting with the following chapters, finding principles to follow; the chapters kept speaking to my life and current situation. Now, don’t get me wrong; I am not saying that the other chapters were not “good”, but I just really wasn’t connecting with them as much.

So, what does this have to do with anything? Well, allow me to tell you something that has got me thinking. The last couple of chapters, 44 and 45, have been hammering on the fact that GOD IS GOD; THERE IS NO OTHER GOD. What that means is that He is Creator and Maker, He is Sustainer and Keeper; He knows who He is and is secure in Himself; He is Power and powerful; He is Savior and Redeemer; He is Just and Justice; He is Omniscient; He is Director and Writer; He is Giver of things; He is Truth; He is the One who speaks and His words come to fulfillment, no matter how long they take! He is the One in whom all thing are made; He is the only ONE who can and does save! Chapter 45 is filled with A LOT of things that I want to discuss, but for the time being, let’s acknowledge that God is GOD, and there is none like Him. He knows that, but do we know that?

We know that He loves us, whether or not we reciprocate that love; and since the Old Testament, He has been reaching out to us, asking (pleading, begging, admonishing) us to turn to Him! That is all we need to do; the rest is in His hands! So, friends, let us turn to Him! Let us look to Him, and let Him handle the rest!

The best part of this is that He is ready to do the work. In fact, He has already done it, through Jesus Christ! Won’t you turn to Him, look at Him, and receive Him!?! Trust me, your life will change forever, for the better!

Look! Be saved! Live!

Bragging about HIM… in a few words

“The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth” (John 1:14, NIV).

“Jesus looked at them and said, ‘With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God’ ” (Mark 10:27, NIV).

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than we all ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory…” (Ephesians 3:20).

“‘But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses…’ ” (Acts 1:8).

God is awesome


I can’t stop bragging about God because… well, I possibly CANNOT stop. So, here’s my brag:


That is all I have to say… I feel like trying to say more than that won’t even be able to capture what is going in on me right now, but MY SAVIOR IS AWESOME!


Let me Brag

“Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord his God, the Maker of heaven and earth, the sea, and everything in them– the Lord, who remains faithful forever” (Psalm 146:5-6, NIV).

So, I love reading the Bible! It’s fun, exciting; sometimes I find it tedious (like the book of Numbers, for example); but at the end of the day it is still the Word of our heavenly Father! Seriously, think about it: we have access to the Word of God! In it one finds many things, i.e. instructions, advice, commandments, etc. Lately, what I have enjoyed seeing in the Word of God are the attributes/characteristics of God; they show us just a glimpse of who He is!

I have been in the book of Psalm for about two months now and it has been a wonderful experience! One of the passages I read today was Psalm 146. In a nutshell, it’s a psalm that praises who God is and what He does. The first time I read it, I didn’t really see that. But, after giving it a second read, I believe the Holy Spirit opened my eyes to see the actions (always present) that God does for His own. Verses 5-10 are too sweet! The verbs there are in the present tense, meaning that these actions of God are part of who He is; they cannot change or stop.

So, please give me a moment to hail my God:

  • He remains (v.6)
  • He upholds (v.7)
  • He gives food and sight  (vs. 7&8)
  • He sets free (v. 7)
  • He lifts up (v. 8)
  • He loves (v. 8)
  • He watches (v.9)
  • He sustains (v. 9)
  • He frustrates the plans of the wicked (v. 9)
  • He reigns (v. 10)

So, my dear friends, our God is pretty awesome! My God is pretty awesome. He is ever present, always and forever! Amen!

When in doubt, remind yourself of this. Search the scriptures and remind yourself of who your God is! Trust me, it’ll turn you around completely!

Jesus Christ, M.S, Psy.D, D.D, G.C

“I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me” (Psalm 16:7, NIV).

Jesus the counselor

This is me Jesus’ feet, crying, begging, pleading, praying, screaming, bawling. I hate it. I have always thought that being at the feet of Jesus is supposed to be in the form of worship like the woman who anointed Jesus’ feet (John 12:1-11). I look at the picture and I see Jesus consoling a woman who needs a comforter, a counselor. Counseling is my profession– I speak things that are not (yet) as though they are (Romans 4:17)– and by God’s grace I am a good one, AMEN; but, even counselors need counselors because we don’t know everything. The Bible promises us in Isaiah 9:6 that Jesus is the ‘Wonderful Counselor”, which is good for me because this counselor needed one yesterday.

A moment of honesty: I HATE MY LIFE right nowNothing seems– seems– to be going well for me; I have been feeling as if I am an afterthought to God; I have been wondering to myself when will I get a break? When is my breakthrough coming? When will people rejoice with me? I have been feeling less than. For a while I was telling myself that I can’t be feeling those things because an unhappy Christian is an oxymoron– but we are people, too. So I have plastered smiles on my face as if I didn’t feel dead inside– amnesia or death seemed reasonable to me. In my distress I understood what David meant when he said, “I am worn out from groaning; all night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears” (Psalm 6:6, NIV). I am tired of hurting.

Counselors listen to their clients, evaluate their situations, and offer advice. Jesus does this and more (Ephesians 3:20). He acts in light of eternity. Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith (Hebrews 12:2), the Alpha and Omega (Revelation 1:8), doesn’t just advice, He resolves; He knows my end because He had chosen me from the beginning (Jeremiah 1:5). Last night was not the first time I cried to Jesus; like counselors, He has been with me every step of the way– and I know that there is no end to our counselor-client relationship, so I am secure. In moving forward, I will remember, by His grace, His promises and, like David said, my heart will instruct and remind me of my God!

Openness and honesty are important in a counseling relationship. I thank God that I was able to be raw with Him. I was so angry at God like clients get angry at those trying to help them. Unfortunately we forget that those in the position of helping us tend to know more/better than what we know, which is exactly why we go to them in the first place. I doubted whether God is indeed for me. I questioned His love for me, even though His Word reminds me continuously of His unfailing love! Still, though, I thank God for mercy!

Jesus Christ is the Greatest Counselor. I woke up this morning aware of God’s goodness. Last night I demanded that God should tell me that everything is going to be ok– all this after He used one of my closest friends to pray with me and give me godly counsel– but God being a merciful Father answered me. I read a devotional this morning that admonished that waiting on God is worth it. In my quiet time I read some Psalms– #irony– and one part that really hit home for me was Psalm 40:1, “I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry” (NIV). I believe that is God telling me it is already well with me because when God hears, He acts, and when He acts, it is awesome. So, I’ll just continue waiting because I now know–KNOW– that God hears me. The patience part is just frustrating.

I imagine walking into Jesus’ counseling office. I see on His door: Jesus Christ, M.S., Psy.D, D.D, G.C, displaying His credentials, not because He has to but because people feel better seeing acronyms next to someone’s name. Jesus Christ, Master of the Soul, Doctor of (my) Psychology, Doctor of Doctors, Great Counselor– of course Jesus will stop there because He is humble.

What am I telling you? We all need a counselor who never gets tired of seeing us or hearing from us. His name is Jesus. You won’t regret it.